Hey everyone. First off, Ill tell you my story…
I am a Mommy to an angel named Kamryn Michael-Wayne. On November 5th 2013, we were blessed with a beautiful, healthy, 7 lbs 13oz Baby boy. He had changed my life in so many ways, made our little family complete. We were so happy the day he came home. The joy of having a baby was the most amazing feeling, after trying for many years. Before we knew it, Thanksgiving came along. He was our cute chunky Turkey. Then a few weeks later, we had a perfect Christmas, all of the family together, just felt so complete. As The New Year was approaching, we were ready to bring in 2014 together, happy and so thankful. I had Kamryn the cutest New Year’s outfit, a little outfit for Babies 1st New Year!
Never would have possibly imagined what was going to change our lives forever, that New Years Eve morning. I had woke up on December 31st, 2013 around 8:30am. I went in and checked on Kamryn. He was sleeping peacefully. So I went back and laid down for a little bit. All of a sudden, I had this unexplainable feeling, fear, come over me to where I jumped out of bed and literally ran to check on him while in the back of my mind, the bottom of my heart, I already knew something was wrong. I had to see his lifeless little body laying there. All I remember is grabbing him in my arms, dropping to the floor and screaming. I was empty, like I was in the worst nightmare that I couldn’t wake up from. I remember my husband running in and grabbed him as he called 911 and tried doing CPR. My 13 year old daughter sat there holding me while we were in complete shock and disbelief. All I remember is I kept praying to God, please don’t let this be true! Please let me wake up from this nightmare! The feeling is so gut wrenching, so undesirable. As we sat in this little room in the hospital, waiting to hear what was going on, I had no feeling. Just numb. We were then told, there was nothing they could do to save him. I didn’t believe it, the nights following, Id wake up to feed him, but have to remember, he wasnt here.. days, even weeks went by until it started to sync in, that our perfectly healthy baby boy was no longer with us. I just wanted closure, WHY?? And when we received the autopsy, I thought I would have an answer. What did I do wrong? Could I have done anything to prevent this? Why???? But, nothing. We were told that there was no explanation of why our son was no longer with us. Sudden Unexplained Death in Infancy. What? How is there no explanation? Afterwards, we started doing so much research, day and night, just to find out that there are tens of thousands of babies that pass away every year, no explanation.
It’s so sad. You would think there would be so much more studies done on this. On infant loss, stillbirth, Miscarriage. So I decided, that’s what I’m going to do, try to raise awareness for babies that were taken, and ones that sadly will continue to be taken too soon. To maybe raise money for answers to all of the families that need closure. So please, everyone.. please help raise awareness! Join us for a March for Babies Walk to help raise that awareness. You never know, you could help change so many lives.
I am a team lead for the March for Babies walk and Im hosting a Fundraiser to help raise money for SIDS, Babies born Premature, Miscarriages, Stillborn, Childhood Illness and for babies like my son, that passes away with no explanation what so ever.
The fundraising event is an online fundraiser with Party Time Mixes. 20% of all sales will go straight to March for Dimes, which will go toward March for Babies.
We need answers! Please spread this to everyone you know. There needs to be more awareness!! They have to be able to tell us why thousands of babies are taken too soon from us each and every year.
Please go to the following website and place an order. Just ordering ONE MIX FOR $5 will mean so much to a child or family in need. PLEASE SHARE!
You can also join my team and walk with us on April 23rd in Bel Air, MD. Or if you would like to make a donation you can do so here.. https://www.marchforbabies.org/mommyofanangel2013